The Opposite Of Euphoria

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Remember at the beginning of the month when I posted this update (load of crap) about how everything is just so wonderful?  Well, I suppose I jinxed myself because, overall, the month of October, typically my favorite month, has been an absolute disaster.  (Random side note: as soon as starting typing up this entry, the song "(Things are) Lookin' Good" by Say Hi To Your Mom came on Spotify. How ironic.)

(Warning:  If you don't like to listen to and/or read rants on soap boxes, please discontinue reading and move on to something else.  Don't want to ruin your day.)

Jason lost a family member quite suddenly.  Our search for a rental house has proved to be way more challenging than we were expecting.  We are both rather broke.  Just found out I'll be working the evening shift on my birthday AND halloween.  And speaking of work, it's been a nonstop wreck for the past couple of weeks.  I have encountered some of the worst people on this planet just in the past few days.  I'm talking cold-blooded, soul-sucking narcissists that feel like it is their personal quest to destroy the self-esteem of others.  I know, I know.  I'm not supposed to take things people say personally.  "They're just venting."  "They just want someone to hear their frustrations."  "They're not mad at you. They're mad at the situation."  I DON'T CARE.  There is an appropriate way to voice your problems/concerns/opinions/criticism, and it's not screaming at someone who has nothing to do with the real reason you're such a black hole of death.  You don't talk to someone like they are the trash you stomp on.  A few weeks ago, right after someone finished up a malicious yelling fit directed at me, another guest leaned toward me and quietly said, "I think everyone should be required to work in customer service for at least six months to see what it's like to be treated like that."  I totally agree, sir.  This job has seriously changed me.  It has made me realize how many self-entitled jack-bottoms are out there.  Now, I just automatically expect the worst in people.  What fun.  It also doesn't help that I am a scorpio through and through.  I am super passionate about everything.  When I like something, I am obsessed.  When I hate something, I hate it with every ounce of my being.  When I'm happy, I am ecstatic.  And when I'm mad, you better run.

End of rant.

Have a lovely week, friends!

Halloween Playlist 2013

Ah, yes.  It's that MAGICAL time of year again; a time for some of the best songs to be played relentlessly on repeat until your ears bleed from all of the charming, eerie spookiness.  Seriously though.  Some of my favorite songs are "horror" themed so it's never a real challenge for me to put together a Halloween playlist of songs for every little girl and boy ghost to enjoy.  Feel free to enjoy them yourself by listening to my selections on Spotify.

1. "Evil" Interpol

2. "River of Blood" The Black Angels

3. "Hell's Bells" Cary Ann Hearst

4. "Blah Blah Blah" Say Hi To Your Mom

5. "Dressed In Black" Shangri-Las

6. "Witchcraft" DZ Deathrays

7. "Alive" Kid Cudi

8. "The Scream" The Cure

9. "Wolf Like Me" TV On The Radio

10. "Dead Souls" Joy Division

11. "Ghost Dream" Blouse

12. "Trick Or Treat" Peaches

13. "Spellbound" Siouxsie and the Banshees

14. "Twilight Omens" Franz Ferdinand

15. "Vicious" Lou Reed

16. "Superstition" The Kills

17. "Bloody Water" Thee Oh Sees

18. "New Fang" Them Crooked Vultures

19. "Midnight Creeper" Eagles of Death Metal

20. "Godzilla" Fu Manchu

21. "Love You To Death" Type O Negative

22. "Pet Sematary" Ramones

23. "Monster Mash" Misfits

24. "Pa Pa Power" Dead Man's Bones

25. "Dead Man's Bones" Dead Man's Bones

26. "(Don't Fear) The Reaper" Blue Oyster Cult

27. "Candy Man" Roy Orbison

28. "Ghostbusters Theme" Ray Parker Jr.

29. "I'm Your Boogie Man" KC & The Sunshine Band

30. "I Put A Spell On You" Screamin' Jay Hawkins

31. "Creeper" Islands

32. "Super Freak" Rick James

33. "Love At First Fright" Murderdolls

34. "Skeletons" Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr.

35. "Devil's Playground" Gram Rabbit

36. "Leaves In The River" Sea Wolf

Currently

Oh hello friends.  It's Friday night.  Kinda.  I have to work tomorrow so I'm not feeling much like party crashing a wild ruckus tonight, but here is what I am up to this evening...

Drinking: A Fox Barrel Blackberry Pear Cider.  Mmm mmm delish.  I got hooked on these a few months back when I stumbled upon them in the beer/wine section of Central Market.  A cider lover's delight, lemme tell ya.

Listening to: Good ol' Grizzly Bear.  I'm really digging their new album right now so it's made me reinvent my love for the group by going back and listening to their beginnings.  I'm head over heels for the remixed version of the 'Horn of Plenty' album.  Especially this song:

Realizing: There are a lot of shortcuts I am unaware of on my MacBook.  I just accidentally pushed command + G and a weird little search bar popped down under my bookmarks bar.  Also, it's fun to listen to a song on YouTube at the same as a song is playing on Spotify.  Trippy.

Pondering: How narcissistic, rude and self-entitled some people act.  This has been an axe-murdering of a week at work due to a myriad of factors.  I stayed late today to type up a statement for my manager regarding an incident in which a self-entitled jack-booty went a little too far.  I'm just so ready for tomorrow to be over and done with.  Thank god I'm off on Sunday and Monday.

Anticipating: My birthday!  I always look forward to it for some reason.  Hey, maybe I'm one of those narcissistic freaks who craves attention.  Anyway, I already know what Jason is getting me, and I'm super excited to receive it, and I'm moving into my "mid-twenties" which can only be a good thing, right?  Right.

Enjoying: These little baby pumpkins I bought at the store today on the way home.  They just complete my Halloween decor.  Hunter likes them too :)

My Love Affair With October

For as long as I can remember, I've always had a little thing for October.  I can't quite explain it, but every year on October 1 I just feel this great sense of relief and comfort.  It's like every stress, large or small, that I've been bearing in my mind or on my shoulders just eases up a bit, and everything is fresh and fancy-free.  It sounds so silly, I know, but it really is the best time of year.  October also brings my birthday, as well as a few birthdays of friends and family, my favorite holiday, red and orange leaves, a cool breeze, the delicious scent of baked sweet potatoes, Russian sage and aster, memories from the past and Reese's Peanut Butter Pumpkins!

As for Halloween - people seem to either love it or hate it.  Well, say what you will about the day of "devil-worshipping", but there are some really wonderful aspects to the spooky holiday.  For me, it has always been such a beautiful example of community togetherness.  Yes, there have been negative cases regarding trick r' treating such as awful people poisoning candy and/or putting razor blades and other harmful substances into kids' goodies, but nothing like that has ever happened to me or anyone I know so excuse me while I reminisce the good.  When I was little my whole family would come to Nana and Pop's for my birthday on the 30th, and many of them would stick around for Halloween and take me out trick r' treating with my mom.  Then, when I was a little older but still young enough for it to be acceptable to participate, I would go around the neighborhood with my close friends collecting candy, laughing at the funny costumes, crying at the scary ones and just relishing in the moment, wishing time would come to a stand still.

It makes me excited to think about the future when I have children of my own and get to celebrate this magical time with them.  I hope they adore all the wonder as much as I do.  I also hope they aren't little sour-pusses like I was every year on my birthday.  It's so strange that I would get so grumpy all of the sudden on my special day and almost always end up getting a spanking or, at the very least, a good talking-to.  I think I would just get overwhelmed by all of the emotions I was experiencing - excitement and delight to be surrounded by everybody I love, the opening of all those pretty little gifts.  And I've always gotten really anxious when I'm with opposite sides of the family at the same time and friends from different friend circles.  I always feel like I'm not giving each person enough attention, or giving some people too much attention.  I'm silly like that I suppose.

Let's see if I can remember all of my Halloween costumes.  I've been a witch, Jasmine from Aladdin, Meg from Hercules, Dorothy, a clown, a '50s diner waitress, an angel, a can-can dancer, Marie Antoinette, a vampire princess, Linda from The Evil Dead, the Virgin Mary, Courtney Love...and that's about all I can think of right now.  I'm sure I forgot quite a few costumes, but those are the ones that seem to stick in my memory.

So there you are, kids.  Now go enjoy the beginnings of Fall and that fresh October air we all love so much.

xoxo

Playlist Post: October 2012

HAPPY OCTOBER, EVERYBODY! 

I have had this monster of a playlist completed for about a month now and have been listening to it quite a bit already.  October really is the perfect time for a playlist put together my moi because I get to have fun and throw in a lot of Misfits, Dead Man's Bones and Say Hi To Your Mom as well as other dark, eerie songs I listen to year round.  So here it is - 142 songs to meet all of your October music needs.